You

My whole world with you is so fragile.

Moves are limited to either A or B, if any options are permitted at all.

Our situation forbids us from being even the slightest bit affectionate unless the curtains are drawn.

I am to be hidden from your world, as you are to be hidden from mine.

Except, not quite, though you don't know that.

I wish you could tell me how you really feel, but you'll never tell me - because thats not our deal.

Sometimes, though, I feel like you're not actually interested in me.

But I mean, it's almost foolish of me to think that you actually could be.

Think about it: a sixteen year old girl, still in high school, young, still childish.

What could you possibly want with that?

Albeit my maturity level being basically commensurate with yours, my age is still a factor whether people claim it is or isn't.
I get emotionally attached, and I think I like you.

You're breaking me so slowly and you haven't got the slightest clue.

But when I'm with you I just feel like I'm myself.

Or maybe I don't, we'll see.

New mindset

What do you want from me?

Do you want to hear me say that I'm insecure? Do you want me to show you that I'm desperate for your attention?

Why is it that people take so much pleasure in holding power over others? How does it benefit us in the end?

Other peoples' misery at our expense is definitely not something to be proud of.

So why do people allow themselves to be taken advantage of, and to be shown so little respect?

I don't understand why people are so trusting, to the point where they show all their cards and allow other's in so easily.

It's a dangerous thing, trusting people to take care of your secrets. Putting the hammer in their hands, but trusting them not to use it on your fragile heart. Trusting them to only help you, and to never harm you.

But the trouble with trust and showing someone all of you, is that 98% of the time, it bites you in the ass. Majority of the time you get double crossed or betrayed, or the value of the most honest version of yourself is undermined. Thats when people get hurt, and feel broken or weak. I won't ever show anyone all of me. It's too risky, and I know better. In this case, the odds are never in your favor - because there are so many shallow, rotten people out there. If you really want to be happy, keep the fragile parts to yourself. By sharing them, and allowing people in, you will feel relief, however in the end when they betray you and use this knowledge against you, all you will feel is regret and pain when they aren't the person you expected them to be. It is most people's nature to use the things they know will hurt you, against you. Regardless of how much they know you were risking by giving them that part of you.

I'm rambling here, but long story short - Don't ever show all your cards.