Across the River

I just stood there, and for a second time froze. And I couldn't help but tear up because I wanted to live forever. And I know thats so stupid and cilche but I honestly did. At that moment I thought that it definitely could not be any worse than dying in the next few weeks. I was terrified and I just wanted to leave town. I wanted to take my boat and travel across that river where maybe I had a whole seperate world waiting there for me. But I knew that that just wasn't the case and it was probably just more trees and bushes just as things were on this side of the river. But it was just nice to let my imagination run and think up a few of the infinite possibilities. I wish that when I walked past the first layer of trees my secret hideout was waiting for me. But it wasn't. It was just trees, and I was still dying sometime this month. And time continued to roll on and so did I.