I wish I'd die tonight just so I could get to You

That day I remembered you. But not how I remember you every other day, because I promise I think of you everyday. I remembered you and I remembered us. And I remembered how much it hurt to let go and how pain dripped so slowly from your eyes as you told me it wouldn't be too long till we'd be together again. But you were wrong. Because everyday I am here living without you, every minute, every second, week, month, and year - is just more than I can bear. And I miss you every day and I just wish you were here and I wish we had more time because I had bigger plans for us. I remembered how you used to go out into the fields on the country side and just lay there and breath in the earth and exhale satisfaction. So I stood out in that same field. I remembered how you were sick but you were happy and I was happy as long as you were happy. Well back then I was trying to be anyway, but its hard knowing you wouldn't be here with me forever like we planned. You said it would just be like putting forever on pause until I meet you again and I just cannot wait to see that day and to see your face again. I remembered you that day like I hadn't remembered you before. Like you were there with me and things were all as they had always been years ago.